Itâ€™s the first evening of the year. Everything seems to be â€œquieterâ€ now â€“ from our neighborhood to my schedule. And reality is setting in.
Now I feel that my feet and back are aching. Perhaps, itâ€™s from all the holiday shopping and attending parties here and there. And I begin to wonder about 2013.
Iâ€™d be a hypocrite to say that I donâ€™t have a sliver of anxiety as the year starts. That Iâ€™m simply happy and excited about 2013. Iâ€™m not.
My husband and I have a big loan we need to pay soon. The questions my daughterâ€™s asking will become more and more difficult to answer. More of my family and old friends might be relocating. Weâ€™ll all be turning a year older. And so on. I can let anxiety eat me up about every single thing in my life until Iâ€™m left with nothing.
But I can also choose to live my life â€“ to see challenges as opportunities for me to pray harder and push further to become a better person. I want to stay with this choice. And now I donâ€™t see any reason why I shouldnâ€™t.
I believe that we canâ€™t control everything in life, but weâ€™re never given anything we canâ€™t handle. And Iâ€™ve always wished to grow old gracefully, especially in heart, mind, and spirit. I think welcoming what I have ahead, no matter how uncertain it is, strengthens my faith about the use of our talents. It also fulfills my wish about maturity.
My final thought this evening: I hope and pray that this year Iâ€™ll focus less on the things I donâ€™t have any hold of. Instead, I want to put my efforts on using whatever I have so I can do what I need to accomplish for myself, my family, and the people around me.
What about you? Any thought thatâ€™s kept you up on the first night of the year? Care to share your wish or plan for 2013?